Yesterday was a really rainy day in Nashville, and I’m not sure why, but I really started reflecting on my life overall. For some reason, the song Breakaway by Kelly Clarkston came into my head, and it reminded me of when I was younger.
I used to lay on my bedroom floor, bright red boombox plugged in, cassette tape playing the intro from the radio station I recorded the song off of before heading into the beginning piano keys. Even from a young age, I knew that I loved music and the way it could make me feel. This song was a staple in my childhood.
If I was being extra dramatic, I’d play the song while it was raining and stare outside my bedroom window pretending to be in a music video. I must have played this song a million times growing up, relating to every single word in the lyrics. I felt something different inside of me – something that didn’t quite fit in with the life I was living.
Last night, as it poured outside and I sat in my bed with Captain, the song started flowing into my thoughts. I realized that where I was now, the hot mess that I’m currently calling my life, this felt more right than any other thing I had before. I thought about how in the lyrics, she says –
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me, but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
I really am living that exact life right now. I don’t know where this life is going to take me, and it’s the first time in my entire life I don’t have a plan. I’m living completely off of a feeling. Something felt wrong where I was in my life, so I took a chance. And I don’t have it all figured out, and I don’t know where it’s going to take me, but I do feel that I’m heading in the right direction.
I really wish I had more of a point to this blog post, but this is about it. Mostly, following your gut instincts and your feelings. You are the only person who really knows you, and if you don’t take a chance on yourself, who will? I can’t tell you how it ends, but it’s pretty exciting (also stressful and frustrating, but so important to learn about what you’re made of). If you have a feeling that you’re made for something bigger, then I say make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway. 😉